May I tell you what God did for me this week? On Monday, the oncologist required a second bone marrow biopsy. I did my first one under sedation at a different hospital, and I had no memory of the procedure itself. I asked for that this time, (I'm a wimp), but they refused. Apparently they weren't set up for that. "It will be PLEASANT," the oncologist said. I quoted The Princess Bride movie in response:
"You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means!"
For the uninitiated, this procedure is where they stick a big needle into your hip bone and suck out the marrow. Four out of five people I had talked to described it as brutal, with some crying, others screaming. I had severe hip problems for weeks after my first one, and I was dreading doing this one the hard way, both for the procedure itself and it's expected effect on my livelihood.
So on Monday, they gave me some pills to relax me, then a small shot like the dentist uses to numb the area for a series of bigger shots to really numb the area. Then the drilling began. They hit a nerve a couple of times, but a lateral move with the needle got me back to feeling only pressure. In all, it was no harder than a bad day at the dentist.
So yesterday afternoon, I was thinking about Monday, and how easy it was compared to the horrors I was expecting, and God spoke quietly to my heart:
"Oh ye of little faith."
God was quoting Matthew 8:23-27:
Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"
He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?"
Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. The men were amazed and asked, "What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"
I was all worked up over this thing, but God made it so easy. "My grace is sufficient" (2 Corinthians 12:9) has been His constant and consistent response lately, every time I start mentally hyperventilating about difficulties ahead. Thanks, God.
"My grace is sufficient."
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